Monday, 7 March 2005 - 3:47 PM EST

This is SO TRUE!!! I have just became aware of some emotional baggage that has been hiding until just recently when it was uncovered through Lady Dyanna!!! And boy, oh boy, is it a big piece of baggage that has actually blocked and built up that wall between my TF which I was unaware of until it was made crystal clear to me. I thank my Higher Self!! You HAVE to honestly and courageously recognize and take care of your own baggage, because it is very true, that you cannot hide the flaws, fears, doubts and issues in your life from your TS's higher self!!! Go back and read the article that Lady Dyanna posted about "Affirmations Alone don't Work". It says that you have to free your Self from the past and no longer carry unfinished emotional business from the past into the present. You must clean the slate of your mind and stop creating your old negative beliefs. When you become one with your higher self you clear that slate of your consciousness because your higher self DOES bring you to a new level of conscious thought, IF you allow it to do so and your past will no longer contaminate your present. Recognize and rid of the baggage and allow the higher self to fill that space, you will lose nothing, but gain your true self, reality and identity!! The twin flame relationship is so worth it...we must pick ourselves up continue on and remain connected with our Higher Selves!!

Wednesday, 9 March 2005 - 12:36 PM EST

This all makes good sense, Lady D. Thanks for the reminder that I need to settle things in my own life before I can expect that my TF will miraculously solve his problems, overcome his blocks and come physically into my life.

I am working on getting my financial house in order (it has been a mess) and changing my living situation, as well as figuring out my career path. It's a tall order!

Often the ego gets in the way, and I become aware of time passing without physical communication from him -- adding to that my fear of contacting him because my ego is insecure about his feelings.

Thanks for the reminder about what I still need to do.

Friday, 11 March 2005 - 11:03 PM EST

Hey there.

Not sure how it is supposed to go when you do your templates. But I did the root chakra today and when the template was pulled off the wall, it was like it had all these roots growing out of it and covering the wall, the ceiling, the floor and wrapping around to other walls. Time was taken to eradicate every root that could be found. The old template (which was huge and a crazy menagerie of abstractedness) was dumped into the vat of liquid gold along with every last little bit of root that could be found. Then all the damage that had been done to the walls and ceiling and roof my Higher Self repaired with a different vat. Then the new template was placed on the wall. Simple etched silver that didn't reflect but seemed to radiate light from within. I placed my hands in the center of it and leaned forward and blew my breath on it, then signed my name below my hand prints. They turned a golden color and there was a mark where my breath had touched the surface...Then his Higher Self did the same - hands, breath and signature - and they also turned golden. It was such a change over what had been there. Beautiful in its simplicity.

I only did that one chakra - it took a lot longer than I thought it had. When I came out of my meditative state over an hour had passed. I was shocked. But I feel more....just more. I knew I needed to call you today, though I couldn't put my finger on exactly why. I'm so glad I did.

Love tons,
kili